Y’all I see your beautiful back to school pictures with Pinterest worthy typeset, chalkboard lettering and cheerful children. I took 17 pictures for my baby’s first day at Preschool and this was the best I got.
And yes I do have 3 kids.
The oldest is in a Cheech and Chong smiling phase. The middle child is hiding because she thought the 3 year old would be beside himself missing her. He’s not. In fact he’s hollering at the neighborhood kids at the bus stop that his school has a sand table AND a water table. Big time here friends.
Despite the crazy big top experience that is our home, this is my first official alone Momma morning in over seven years.
And I ugly cried all the way out of the school parking lot.
Ugly cried in his preschool parking lot that is. I was ready to Dumbo Drop Sister at her school curb with all the wailing and gnashing of teeth on the drive there. Jesus take the wheel seriously please so I can turn around to snap her back to reality and not be making useless threats in the rear view mirror. Ugh. The drama.
I thought I’d be thrilled for the first “me” time in over seven years. Yet I was actually sad.
Thrilled he took off to his teacher smiling and ready to go. Sad it’s all so tiring and so busy and so loud and so unknown and so heart bursting and so messy and so cuddly and so exhausting and so giggly and so morale busting and so love tank filling all at once.
Sad it’s all happening so fast.
Motherhood is all the emotions and more. It’s maddening and heart exploding and not a bit like I thought it would be. It’s harder. It’s better.
Honestly for the first time I really feel life happening so much faster in reality than it has felt in all the past moments I was rushing to get through.
So to terrible first day pictures that terrifically capture the stage we are in here here! To a fabulously maddening love filled year ahead for all of us no matter if our babies have babies of their own, haven’t started school yet or don’t let us take their pictures anymore. We’ve got this Mommas! Crazy pictures and all.